Matt laid sprawled out on his bed. Someone could mistake him as being asleep the way his chest rose and fell so lightly almost unnoticeable. That was if they didn’t look closer at him which most people probably wouldn’t. However if they did they would see the open and empty bottle of pills laying in his open palm.
Techie looked like hell. There was dried vomit all over him, the bags under his eyes had also developed bags, and his eyes were red-rimmed from more than just allergies and rust. He’d been sobbing from terror out in the hallway. A world without Matt wasn’t a world he wanted to live in at all. Techie clenched his jaw and asked with a wavering, broken voice, “Wh-What the f-f-fuck, Matt?” He drew nearer and placed his forehead on Matt’s shoulder, taking a shaky breath.
“I can’t lose you, M-Mattie. Please… don’t d-do that ever again.”
Matt winced when he heard cure at him like that. He didn’t blame him he probably would have done the same thing if he had found techie in suck a situation. He didn’t know what had made him or maybe he did. Yes he definitely did. He was weak and lonely and hated the way almost everyone in this ship treated him. He was growing sick of it and didn’t think anyone would really miss him if he wasn’t around anymore.
“ I-I’m sorry techie I just I just kriff I just I’m sorry…I didn’t think…”
that was just it the technician hadn’t thought. He curled into himself as he felt tears start to slide down his eyes. He heaved a bit feeling like he might throw up again but he didn’t.
“ it’s just it’s so hard…too hard. No one here ever makes anything easy…it feel like…kriff.”
Techie pulled Matt into a tight hug, resting his head against his lap. They were both gross right now, and that didn’t matter at all. “I can’t live w-without you,” he sobs, “Matt, Mattie, please, please.” Somehow he needs to prove to him that he’s loved, and, most importantly, worth loving.
So Techie holds his bestest friend in the entire universe, rocks him gently while he cries, and whispers soft, sweet praise and promises; swearing he’ll be there for him no matter what, no matter when, no matter how.
TechieHux 