Sarah leaned against techies chest, letting him lightly hold her, her love for him was greater than her sadness. She wiped some of her tears away, trying to regain composure. She took a deep breath. “I’m listening, but first…d-do y-you l-l-love me?” She said her voice near breaking again,” I’m sorry wasn’t who you wanted to be when. I wrote those letters”

“Fuck, Sarah, no! All of that: the l-letters, MaMa… I’m so glad it was you! Something led me t-to you. For a long time I th-though I had the shittiest luck in the entire goddamn world, but you know what? That’s wrong. Because I love love love you, and all the shit that happened led me here, to you.”

Techie took in a shuddering breath and buried his face into the crook of her neck. “When Matt… kissed me… my brain shut down. I’d l-liked him for months and months, so I it liked b-because… my head thought it was back then, if that m-makes any sense.”

Gently, he places his hand over his little brother’s. Techie wants so badly to press their foreheads together, just like when they were smaller; wearing those little overalls and running barefooted through a muddy puddle during a typical overcast Arkanis day.

“You d-did good,” Techie whispers to Hux, voice fierce. That man ruined them. It was only fitting to ruin him back.

He leans back and tries to tame his wild ginger hair down. A braid maybe. Or a ponytail. “Sh-should I dye my hair? Hide away?”

Techie was so shocked he could only stare at Phasma after the kiss, wide eyed. Kissing her hadn’t been part of his plan, or even crossed his mind, but now that it happened? There was no way he’d be thinking of anything else for weeks.

Hello! I hope you’re having a good day! I was wondering what Techie is going to be for Halloween, and why?

It took me a while to figure out my costume. The first thing I could come up with was a kitty… Pretty much a Millicent cosplay, actually! 

The more I thought of it, the more I realized I’d rather dress as something else…

A little holonet digging and, ta-dah! A dryad! The costume will take some time but I’m excited! 

I’ve never seen trees in real life, so I think I’d like them a lot if I did. And since dryads are tree spirits, I’d be a very good one. I’d love allllll the trees that have existed. Ever.

[OOC]

Fuck it. I’m going to keep playing my mediocre Techie however long I want, and no amount of inferiority complex is going to stop me!!

[OOC]

As much as I WANT to answer rps, I feel this crippling self-doubt and it makes it seem like I’m physically unable to. Am I a bad RPer? Does my portrayal of Techie suck? Are other Techies better than mine? Do my RP partners want to end our threads bc I’m just that bad?

I want to lay down and never get up.

techiehux:

Stress Relief [Open]

The clock chimes twice in a seedy bar on the edge of town, where an uncomfortable-looking young man sits squished between two beefy patrons at the counter. He quietly nurses a drink and keeps to himself, strange blue eyes wandering around. He’s clearly out of his element, but that doesn’t stop him from searching for a warm body to go home with.

He shivered, blown-wide pupils fixed on Sarah’s kiss swollen lips. “I’m c-clean, okay? And I got, um, condoms.” Techie ran his fingers through her hair and sucked soft on her neck, leaning his hips towards hers.